Coming home for good from Papua New Guinea in 2012 was a heart break for us. We knew it was a permanent change, no more living overseas, our health was dictating our journey at that time. We took a position of Member Care reps covering six southwest states. Decided to live in California where our son who was getting a divorce lived. Long story short we rented a place together. Through all the changes depression had already moved into my mind and I hung onto the God who hung the moon. Job 26
Years ago I ask the Lord for three things, allow us to live close to at least one of our children and grand children, to live in the mountains, in a place with a fireplace, a real fireplace.
One day sitting outside with our son watching his two children play, I was enjoying the beautiful southern Californian mountain air. Yep, we are surrounded by mountains. To top it off we had rented a condo with a wood burning fireplace. And did you get who I was sitting outside with? Son and grandchildren.
Depression is like a dark cloud that stands between earth and heaven. Our God, the one that hung the moon also hung the clouds as it says in Job 26:5-14. He did not cause the depression but He was going to work in my darkness. When there is tons of light you don't have to trust as much because light shatters darkness. Walking in faith is easier in the light. In the darkness of my depression I was tripping and falling all over those around me, wounding some of them. I was easily frustrated for no real reason most of the time, miserable to be around. Even I did not want to be around me.
I don’t understand the pull of gravity but I believe it is there and my heart believed the Lord could and would lift me out. He showed me the fringes of His ways that day, and that was enough to pull me out of the pit I was in. Since God does not waste anything He did not waste the pit. I was tired and weary from trying to get out of the pit myself, I felt helpless. This is where I learned, AGAIN, God loves helpless people.
Part of this post is actually a comment I made on someone else post. As I am writing my comment it popped into my mind that I could use it as my next blog post.
Then I started gathering ways to beat depression. Exercise, journaling, take vitamins, avoid sugar, get some sunlight even if you have to buy a sunlamp, drink power smoothies, pray, read Bible of course and the one I like the best, laugh. There is nothing quite so lively than a good belly laugh till the tears roll. So I am gonna leave you with a couple of jokes that I think are funny.
What do Alexander the Great and Winnie the Pooh have in common?
Same middle name.
I couldn’t believe that the highway department called my dad a thief.
But when I got home, all the signs were there.
See, I told you it would take your mind off of whatever was depressing you.