Dinangat Mail
I wanted to continue on with an update from one of the women from the Dinangat missionary team. Ellie has been a vital part of the ministry along with the other two wives. A few ladies and I are studying "contentment" here in the states but as you will read "God's contentment" is never based on where you live or how much you have. Worry knows no bounderies but neither does the power of God. Yes it is the missionaries that bring the gospel to these remote people but God use them to teach the missionary heart also. How I wish I could take you to this beautiful place in the mountains of Papua New Guinea. To see the love of God shine from the faces of the believers. To sit with them on the ground as they worship the same God you and I worship. To meet Ellie and the rest of the team and and hear their excitement at how God is working in all their hearts. But for now this precioius testemony will have to do.
March 2013
"Yesterday
I worried a lot about whether or not I will be able to think straight and talk
right when I will meet again with Elli to check the Bible Translation. Then
today I worried again, but then I thought that those worries probably make God
sad. Hasn't He helped me all those years and hasn't He worked through me and
done it well? Why do I think that maybe now God would not help me again? So I
stopped worrying and trusted God. And I came and now you see how well it went!"
This is what
Mesari (2nd lady on the right) told me yesterday as we met to check the Bible
Translation for understanding, like we do every Tuesday afternoon. Her words
touched me. I had to hold back my tears. How can Mesari have such a trust in
God after knowing Him only for 5 years? How can she trust Him so much better
than I?
Wearing a
ripped shirt and stitched together skirt, without shoes, without a watch,
without any jewelry she sat cross legged in front of me on the floor where we
read together the words of 1 Timothy 6, 6-9:
"But godliness
with contentment is great gain. For we brought nothing into the world, and we
can take nothing out of it. But if we have food and clothing, we will be
content with that. People who want to get rich
fall into
temptation…"
When Mesari
heard those words her eyes showed this deep shame. She felt bad, for she felt
caught in her discontentment. She said, "Yes, that is true, when we
have food and clothes, what else do we need? We have God, our Savior, He is
everything we need to live and to die!"
I don't know
what to say. I feel awful. Just a minute ago she told me about her bad house
and that at night when the family sleeps the rain drops on them through the bad
roof. Now they will need to move to their smaller house in the garden which is
further away and they will need to walk a long distance to come to the village
every day. And for days now she is wearing this ripped shirt, or for weeks
really. Sweet potatoes for breakfast, for lunch and for dinner.
I feel ashamed.
And somehow it feels good. For I see in this moment how precious of an example
my Dinangat friend is to me. I am proud of her and I will never forget how she
trusts God in her poor situation and finds contentment in Him in the midst of
all this. This is what I want! And I thank God for Mesari!
We can identify with Ellie and her friend Mesari...anxiety comes to us all. One of the suggestion in our contentment study is to write our worries out and put them in an Anxiety Box. It will be a reminder that God is carrying those worries. Once or twice a year open the box and find God's has taken care of most of our worries.
I like what George Mueller said: " The beginning of anxiety is the end of faith. The beginning of of true faith is the end of anxiety."
What helps you deal with your anxiety?