Saturday, March 4, 2017

Fear and an RV

For about a month now we have been looking at used RV's to park up at our daughters in northern Minnesota as a little bed and breakfast for us when we visit them.  They  live in a two bedroom mobile home  so it's a bit crowded when we visit. We are certainly blessed grand parents for all five of them would do whatever it takes to get us up there for a visit.

 Since the issue of my heart condition came up I have been pondering what  I want my years left to be full of.  We love the ministry we do for New Tribes and don't plan to retire yet.  Next priority for us is  being with our adult children and grandchildren.   As I said, our daughter and family live in cold northern MN., little place called Blackduck. Our son and his family living in southern California and we reside with them year round.  But I want  a few months of the year, when it is the warmest to reside with our daughter and family.  Which is what resulted in a search for a RV, older one but functional.

Now if you know anything about the state of MN., know this, it if full of lakes, full of the best tasting fish so there are always tons of RV for sale. Everyone wants to upgrade. which is kind of nice because we are not looking to upgrade just looking to find one that fits our need without too much  cost.  Ace sits for hours looking at different kind, 5th wheels, class c, class b, class what ever else there is.  You can get some pretty fancy 5th wheels or huge bus type RV''s and put yourself over your head in debt.  Well, we are not debt people, and have never been so we set a ceiling on what we  knew we could pay cash for and on went the search.

Two kept popping up, both nice, exactly our style, affordable, plenty of room and wouldn't you know both are only about 30-40 miles from where our daughter and family lives.  That's when fear moved in and replaced the excitement we had been feeling.  Funny, fear is not afraid of age or wisdom,  and no matter how much experience one has had fear can sneak around the corner and blindsides you.  

What if we buy it, get it set up and one of us get sick and we never get to use it?

 What if, we buy it and the furnace, goes out, or roof caves in from too much snow on it? 

  Oh, I could go on and on with the what if's, there are plenty to go around if you want to borrow one.

Inaction breeds doubt and fear. Action breeds confidence and courage. If you want to conquer fear, do not sit at home and think about it. Go out and get busy. Not sure who quoted this but I love it but not more then the words of our Lord. 

Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.  And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:6-7

Prayer has been answered, peace reigns, and now we are the owner of a 2002 RV.  It will be parked at our daughters, all set up and ready for us when we get the time to go visit them which should happen the end of May.  

Well fear took a hike since it could not make us inactive.  I have a few more months of recovery to go before we can make a trip up to MN.  Next week is my visit to the Cardiologist and I am hoping he says yes to a ministry trip we would like to make the end of March.   It's a little closer then Mn. but will require a few days on the road and several nights in  a hotel.  I am feeling pretty good for a 70 year old heart patient.  Again, thanks for all the encouragement...

Tuesday, February 21, 2017

Celebrate // New Tribes Mission - 75th Anniversary

Image result for jim elliot quotesNot sure how I missed putting this on my blog for all who stop by to listen to.  Maybe you are not involved with New Tribes in any way but you teach a children Sunday school class or pick up the elderly so they can come to church. Maybe  your gift is singing in the choir or just maybe you have been challenged to go over seas on a short term mission trip.  Where ever God has you He does not want you to be idle...He has created you to worship Him and tell others about His love for them.  Every person who hears the gospel is given the chance to not go into hell for eternity. Oh I know that is not religiously correct in some circles to talk about "hell". I mean, come on, God is love, He would not send anyone to hell, would He?  But God does not send people to hell, they send themselves by rejecting the grace offered on the Cross.  

Ace and I have never regretted one minutes spent serving the Lord through New Tribes Mission. Has there been hard times, of course.  We counted the cost many times and decided it was too costly then God would bring someone into our lives that needed Him and we would count it all over again.  People ask us, when are you going to retire?  At 70 we still have enough life in us to be useful for Him in a stateside ministry continuing to be part of the team reaching the least reached. We love this video put together to celebrate the 75th anniversary of New Tribes Mission.  There is a book out titled, God Planted Five Seeds that is worth the read.  You see we are part of those seeds planted years ago when our first five missionaries were killed.  And those seeds keep producing over and over again. Who knows, you might be the next one to to take up the challenge of bring an overseas missionary. Enjoy.

Monday, January 30, 2017

Yucky duck or yea duck

      These two little ducks sit on my desk  as reminders of an
important truth God continues to teach  me.  I've use them as an illustration in ladies meetings as I tell the story of the Yuck and Yea ducks.

Notice the faces of the ducks, one has tears dripping from it's eyes, a drooping mouth, that the yuck duck. The other one has smile lines coming from it's beak and no tears, he is the yea duck.

Here is the story of these little ducks, yuck and yea.  They ALWAYS swim together, ALWAYS.  Often we acknowledge yuck duck and forget the yea is there because our struggles keep us from seeing the yea's in our trial. Let me give you a for instant that happened to me recently. \

Last time I posted I mentioned I was having chest pain and  trouble breathing upon exertion.  Tests  revealed there was blockage in the two main arteries of my heart.  I ask, actually I begged  God that  stints could be used to open the blockage  but to my dismay there was too much blockage, I needed by pass surgery.

The yuck duck seem to be swimming all by itself at that point.  Even though I needed bypasses the doctors said I had a strong heart and should do well, awe...there was the yea.  I begin to thank Him for the good doctor I had  who pushed me into going to the ER so I would see a Cardiologist  quickly.  There was that yea duck swimming right along side yuck, heart surgery is a yuck, great doctors are the yea.

God provided for our daughter in Minnesota to come and be with  me through the whole ordeal.  I think my husband needed her there as much as I did. The doctors were able to do bypasses on the two major arteries but there was a third one block at the back of my heart, it could not be bypassed.  There they are again, yuck and yea, swimming together.

Everything was going well, four days after surgery they removed one of the two tubes. The other one continued to pour out a lot of fluid, too much actually, something was wrong.  My goodness, the yuck duck seems to be swimming alone again.  It seems during the surgery in the moving of my heart a tear happened in the Thoracic  area  behind my heart.  It's the part of the body that our fat flow through.  There was no way they could remove that tube because the fluid would build up around my heart and weaken it,, more yuck.  Surgery was an option but the very  last one, very risky.  Here is when the yea begin to show itself.  If I could maintain an almost no fat diet along with some shots it would hopefully heal on its own. Of course that meant staying in the hospital with the blasted tube still in me.  Yuck again

By this time our daughter had to go back home and Ace became my constant companion staying every night with me.  All the nurses made comments how blessed I was to have such caring people in my life, yea and  yuck duck.  During my 19 days in the hospital I met many nurses but a couple were truly  yea ducks.  One in particular, we called her Memphis since I could not pronounce her  name and  she was from there.  She was a strong believer who spoke His words every time she was in my room.   Even when she was not my nurse she would check in on me, the bonds of Jesus are strong.    Another was a young women whose parents were missionaries in Japan, she grew up there so we were knitted together by a common understanding.  Ace and I plan on getting with her and her husband, doing some member care ministry as soon as I can travel.

A side note,  I had my 70th birthday while in the hospital.  The yea is I have lived a full 70 years and the yuck, no birthday cake on my diet.

Believe it or not, one can survive with little fat and not be hungry. I could have  no more than five grams of fat a day for the Thoracic  system to shut down and heal itself.  Now any of you who have been in the hospital know the food is a yuck duck.  But there were some yea too, corn flakes and skim milk for every breakfast tasted wonderful. And they made a tasty vegetarian vegetable soup along  with six crackers which became my  lunch and supper every day, I lost 12 pounds.  Now that is the biggest yea.

By now you are sick of the details of my trial but to not tell the details would not be giving the yuck and yea duck their due.

Anybody reading this can attest to their own yuck and yea ducks.  Maybe right now all you can see is the yuck in your life but God promises you there is a yea for He is always with you and that is our biggest yea.

John 16:33 “I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.”

P.S. It was an over whelming amount of people who send well wishes and prayers. Since being home I have finally been able to read them all on facebook and emails.    How I wish I could hug all of you but a huge THANK YOU will have to do.    

Sunday, January 1, 2017

Sacrifice of Praise

Image result for praising God climbing a mountainPraising God when we do not feel like praising Him is called a “sacrifice of praise”. Hebrews 13:15 says, “By him therefore let us offer the sacrifice of praise to God continually, that is, the fruit of our lips giving thanks to his name.

Despite all my medical issue this past year and a few other trials  I am choosing to praise His name as I end 2016.   It would be so easy to just choose to lose weight, keep my temper in check, save more money, give more, be kinder, pray more and God knows I need to work on all those issue and a few I did not name.   But I am going to choose to praise His name in 2017 no matter what comes and even when I fail.  The knowledge I have of my relationship with Him does not rest on what I do or don't do. It rest in what He has done for me and His love for me which does not come because of who I am but who He is. It is on this truth I can give a sacrifice of praise.  


Footnote since I post the above:
 For months now I have been experiencing chest pain and loss of breathe even doing normal house hold chose. It has gotten worst, finally went to doctor and she said I had classic angina symptoms. Had a Nuclear stress yesterday which reveal an abnormality in my heart. Waiting for an appointment to have a heart cath test which will reveal either blockage or a valve issue, or etc. I am praying it is something they can fix without open heart surgery such as stints. All that to say, I do have peace about whatever has to happen. The only person who could take my peace is me through worry that my God is not in control. I do covet your prayers.

I cannot stress this enough: if you don’t have peace, it isn’t because someone took it from you; you gave it away. You cannot always control what happens to you, but you can control what happens in you.

Saturday, December 24, 2016

It's About the Cross

Presents are all wrapped, waiting to be opened.  In about an hour we leave for a Christmas Eve service then onto a Christmas party at a friend.  I sit down at my computer to read facebook one more time before frosting a cake.  This song popped up on the wall of a missionary friend serving in Papua New Guinea.  The words of this song brought back to my heart the real meaning of Christmas.  It is about the cross whether you start at the beginning or in the middle as long as you end up worshiping a risen Savior.


Monday, December 19, 2016

The Gift That Was Nailed To A Tree

( This is a re-post from a couple of years ago and these two grandchildren have a one and half year old brother to unwrap gifts with them. Should be a joy to watch)

  Nothing like a wrapped present to build excitement in the heart of a child.  Our three and five year old grandchildren , Austin and Emarie, ask us every time they are over if they can open their presents.  Ace and I get excited too for we know what the presents are and we know they will love them.    They did not shop for their gifts or pay for it,  we did, it's theirs, free and clear.  We don't expect them to pay us back, or buy us something in return.  

You know I am still excited over the gift I opened on Oct. 20th,  1980. In fact I want to give this gift to all I meet.  Instead of being under a tree this gift was nailed to a old rugged cross,  it's package of flesh torn and bleeding.  The bow made into a crown of thorns dug into the wrapping.  There was nothing pretty about the package and the way it was presented.  Yet it contain everything to give me eternal life. 

 I believe God the Father, the Son and the Holy Spirit gets excited when ever this gift is presented to someone.  They wait, hoping it will be accepted.  

There is no plainer truth taught in the Word of God than salvation being a “free gift” (Romans 5:15,18; 6:23). If I were to offer you a Christmas present, but with the stipulation that you must be willing to take a bath, it would not be a gift. Why? Because I have clearly implied that I expect you to take a bath to get the present. A gift is defined as something given voluntarily without any payment in return. 

The thief had nails through both hands, so that he could not work; and a nail through each foot, so that he could not run errands for the Lord; he could not lift a hand or a foot toward his salvation, and yet Christ offered him the gift of God; and he took it. Christ threw him a passport, and took him into Paradise. D.L. Moody (don't you just love this quote?)

One more quote from Mary DeMuth book, Everything. 

We cannot fully satisfy a holy God. Our redemption is an outrageous, initiating act accomplished by God alone. He pursued humanity to such an extent that His feet landed on earth, and He chased after us until He rescued us at the cross. We did not climb onto those wooden beams. We could not receive the nails that pierced those holy hands. We who are not kingly wore no crown. We could not drink the cup of God wrath. "For while we were still helpless, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. Rom. 5:6. God did what we could not . He sent His beautifully sinless Son to take our place, to satisfy for all time God's wrath upon sin. "For our sake He made Him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in Him we might become the righteousness of God. II Cor. 5:21

God transforms, He creates, He  thinks otherworldly thoughts,  He dares to redeem an obstinate world. If we camp in that place, remembering the gift we could never, ever pay back, we will live astonished lives, and our growth will be the best kind---the kind that emerges from gratitude, from thinking rightly about God.

What a gift!

Saturday, November 19, 2016

Over the River

Over the river and through the woods,
To grandmother's house we go;
The horse knows the way to carry the sleigh,
Through (the) white and drifted snow!
Over the river and through the woods,
To have a first-rate play;
Oh, hear the bells ring, "Ting-a-ling-ling!"
Hurrah for Thanksgiving Day!

Just a few verses of this old song sung often around Thanksgiving brings a picture perfect occasion to mind, doesn't it?

We head out to northern Minnesota for a white Thanksgiving with our daughter and family.  It's been a year since we all have been together so we are looking forward to great food, games, snowmobile rides and more food.   Just getting to where our daughter and family live takes some doing. A car ride to Las Vegas, over night stay, fly out early the next day to Fargo, North Dakota, drive three hours in our rented car  right to their place. Is it worth it, yes, yes, yes, are we thankful, yes, yes, yes.  So today when I read a post by Abby over at Chapter 37 titles, Give Thanks in Everything...the value of "In" my heart was shook by the words of this woman. Her world is not picture perfect by a long shot, yet through her not so picture perfect life comes these words.  It's the last paragraph that shook me. I have included  the link also to her blog post.  Click over there and read it all, you will not be sorry, you will be blessed.  


Consistent thanks to God, for the unchangeable fact of God, offered in my current situation is the key that frees a person from ever being a captive to circumstance, to feelings, to any single thing I don’t like about myself or my life…God is bigger than those circumstances, God is bigger than those feelings. God is the center, God is the focus, God is the reason, God is the hope, God is the answer. Never mind what I feel about today! We aren’t discussing a sort of thanks that depends on today! “Today” doesn’t get me out of bed, but God does. Thanks in everything does not in anyway take the significance from the very real experiences we have, but it does take away the sting that may be in those experiences. The sugar added to your tea does not turn the water’s color back to clear, it turns the taste. Thanks is a gift we give to God, which He richly returns to us. Thanks is our personal invitation for coffee and cake with our Creator. Thanks meets us at the door of God’s throne room, it offers a seat, it fluffs the pillows, and adds a log on the fire. It is here, thanks tells us, it is right here, in this Presence in this place that there is fullness of joy. And that is the value of in.               /
Psalms 16:11   Thou wilt shew me the path of life: in thy presence
 is fulness of joy; at thy right hand there are pleasures for evermore.

What are you thankful  "in"?