Recently I was viewing posts I had worked on but never finished. Came acoss this short testemony of what led me to salvation. The process of God bringing me to salvation was long and sometimes very painful. How grateful I am He does not give up on us.
This child would make it!
What happen to those six babies I lost?????
(And search I did too....loads of self help books, (no internet back then) and countless opinions from my friends and family left me mostly confused and not as happy as I should have been for someone who just had their first child. Everything I ever dreamed had come my way - a husband with a good job, a house and a darling little red headed girl, Tara Jo. To add to our goodness we had a son Jared 4 years later after another miscarriage.
Soooo why did I still sense a huge hole inside of me?
That hole had been there all my life really. As a young child I can remember dwelling on that hole and feeling my self shrink into the nothingness of it till there was no more Betty. If I disappeared into the hole would anyone even miss me? Thinking I could escape that hole, I tried to outrun it and got married at seventeen. I also tried some of those self help tips which brought some outward changes, but that question returned often leaving me feeling guilty for not being content with the good I had.
Until I bought a bible from one of my bookclubs.
When did God fill your hole?