My Journey with Devotions
I love listening to groups of women share what they’re good at and where they struggle. Some speak openly and vulnerably, while others hold back—perhaps unsure or hesitant. Some would say, I start every day reading my Bible or a devotional book.
In 2019, I bought New Morning Mercies by Paul Tripp, a year-long devotional, and committed to reading it daily. At first, I was consistent, and when I missed a day, I’d catch up right away. I was so moved by it that I shared it with the ladies in my Bible study, telling them how deeply it was speaking into my life. I marked my consistency by writing the year I read it at the top. I started out so good but before I finished January 2019 reading, I was reminded of how inconsistent I was. January entries whispered back to me: “You didn’t finish.” Again.
But I thank God for Romans 7:15-20, where Paul writes:
I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I hate I do...”
It’s like looking in a mirror. Consistency doesn’t always come naturally to me, but I no longer fear that. My salvation isn’t anchored to my ability to be faithful every day—it’s tied to Jesus’ faithfulness every day.
My devotional book is the picture of a women saved by putting her faith in Jesus and what He did on the cross. Somedays I walk so close to Him, somedays I just make it through the day. It does not frighten me anymore that I am not consistent because my salvation does not depend on my consistency, my failing to be faithful every day does not cause Him to love me any less.
July 25 Devotional: Living in the War Zone
Tripp’s words for July 25, 2025, spoke right into the battle that wages within me:
“You and I live between the ‘already’ and the ‘not yet’... Sin has not yet been fully eradicated... The spiritual war still goes on. And it’s fought on the turf of your heart for control of your soul...”
Yes—I live in that war every day. It shows up in doubt and faith, anxiety and trust, rebellion and submission. Some days, I walk closely with Jesus. Other days, I just make it through. But I am not condemned for that. I am held—flawed, yet fiercely loved.
July 28 Devotional: Grace Defines Me
When I read the July 28 entry back in 2020, I remember feeling seen. Today, it speaks even louder:
“Grace radically alters my identity and my hope... My identity is rooted in the achievements of another. My hope is based not on how well I am doing, but on what Jesus has done for me...”
I made it personal. This isn’t theory—it’s the very fabric of how I live now. Grace allows me to be honest, to release shame, and to rest in the identity I’ve found in Jesus.
I am not impressed with others consistency or faithfulness like I was when I first got saved. The women I have learned to look up to are those like me. They know who they are in Christ. They are honest and real, frail in some things, strong in other. Daily we are trusting Him to get us through this "war" that happens every day in one form or another.
My freedom verse:
Romans 8:1: "There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit."
Why should I condemn myself or anyone else for whatever we do or do not do. Nothing can separate me from Christ, nothing, not even my inconsistency.
Reflection
Today I choose grace over guilt. I remind myself that my worth is not measured by spiritual consistency but by Jesus’ unwavering love and finished work. Even in the middle of my war—when I feel weak, weary, or distracted—He remains strong and faithful. I walk forward not condemned but covered. Not perfect but perfectly loved. Here is an important reminder, grace meets us in the middle, not just at the finish line.