Just wait

 

AA friend told me at 60, just wait till you hit your 70’s. Her comment has proved too true. At 70 I had open heart surgery, two bypasses, 19 days in hospital due to complications, 14 pounds lighter I went home to heal. A few months later, same year I had my knee replace. So far it was the most painful recovery.

Just wait, there is more.

After those two medical issues we moved to northern Minnesota where they winters are brutal, summer are short, almost no spring but beautiful in the fall. Any move is hard but moving in your 70’s takes more energy then I had most of the time. Covid’s hit and it did a number on me which required some surgery and for about three months I had a tube in my kidney for the urine to drain into a bag. Had a couple of stays in the hospital due to infections that kept cropping up in my badder. My right kidney does not work, the left one is working about 30 percent.

Just wait,

In the past year my health has declined due to my heart, kidneys and then I developed a sciatic nerve issue, a very painful one. I did therapy for about four three months, finally I am able to walk without a cane. After an MRI revealed my back was a mess I finally will see the surgeon in a few weeks. He will either give me an injection or surgery.

Just wait,

For several months I have been having a lot of heart angina, and a stress test revealed there is more, blockage on the left side of my heart. This will come first before the spine issue.

Just wait…I know it sounds like a lot and it is, but one thing I am conscious of is I am getting closer to heaven. Daily I am thankful for the era I was born in, great minds have come up with so much treatment for so many of what ails us. If I lived a 100 years ago I am sure I would have died early. I am one of the privileged ones who have gotten to live into my winter years where I am reaping from those great minds that figured out how to do transplant. I love living more than I ever did, I love waking up even if I am in pain and knowing I have another day to serve Him.

Just wait…“

 John 16:33 Jesus says, Take heart! I have overcome the world.”heaven is next and I am looking forward to no more pain, no more tears, no more trouble. My faith has been tested and tried over and over and the Lord has proved Himself and the Word over and over too.

 friend told me at 60, just wait till you hit your 70’s. Her comment has proved to

Identity

This quote made me smile this morning. It would look good on a tombstone, don't you think?

 

I do love to dance. I do have to put my hearing aid in so I can hear the music and I do stumble a lot with the dancing and get out of breath easily. I usually speak from the heart praying that what I said helped instead of discouraged. I do fail at that one more than I like to tell. I pray daily for a filling of His Spirit so I can love other with love that show Christ love. I fail at this one often too, too much Betty focus, not enough Christ focus. Hopefully anyone who will visit my grave when I go to heaven will only remember the good things about me.

Wise Hearted 

 Got any thoughts on what you would like your tombstone to say about you.  

 

Were You There?

 

There is no better time of the year than Easter to focus on how having the forgiveness of Almighty, Creator of mankind, and our universe can release us from our own sin. Leaning into His forgiveness for all who will accept it brings freedom and power for us to forgive others and ourself.

Jesus, the son of God being born into this sinful world is a precious truth, but His death on the cross, sinless meeting the sins of the world and feeling the weight of it as He hung on an old rugged cross for me brings the freedom to my heart and how I relate to others.

But, first we must see we are the sinner who brought Him to such a painful death, and resurrection.

I love that old song, Were You There When They crucified my Lord. Yes, I was, my sin was nailed to the cross, I was washed clean from the blood flowing from His body. What a truth to live life with and it will take me into eternity to live forever with God the Father, Jesus the Son and the Holy Spirit.

Were you there as it took you as a sinner to the cross with Him? If you believe this whole story, you were there and like me will go to heaven when you die.

Happy Easter

The Blood

This popped up on my Facebook site this morning from 2016.  Nothing has changed since then, except I have grown in my understanding of God's love for me. It fills my mind every day, I wake up loved, go to bed loved, take up a new day loved.  Was compelled to post it again on FB and share it on my blog.  Safe Haven Bible Study is by a lady from hometown, Melissa Garrison.  Check her out, she writes with knowledge of this wonderful love/   

When you accepted Jesus as Savior, you entered into a covenant relationship with Him. And He did this amazing “swap”. We gave Him our past, our failures, our filthy garments and He gave us a robe of righteousness! It’s important that we don’t go back to our old lifestyle and pick up our filthy garments again. Why is that important? People who are comfortable with filthy garments will never experience or carry the presence of God. What a sad boring life without a close walk with Jesus

Safe Haven Bible Study

The importance of blood:

From the earliest days in the mother's womb until the day of death, a person's life is in the blood. Even a person-to-person gift of blood is treasured and called "the gift of life." Human blood is indeed a gift from the Lord Jesus Christ, clearly testifying to His great creative abilities and the body’s total unity of function. The Bible says that the Lord Jesus' blood is particularly special--in fact, "precious" (1 Peter 1:19)--because it is able to redeem us and cleanse us from all sin (1 John 1:9). Let us give glory "unto him that loved us, and washed us from our sins in his own blood" (Revelation 1:5).

Be assured that there is no sin you have ever committed that the blood of Jesus Christ cannot cleanse.

Billy Graham

A Brand New Touch

 

Facebook and the news are full of the revival going on at Asbury College in Ky.  If I lived closer, I would jump right into the flow of it.  Nothing better than allowing God to have full reign of your heart.  For the issues of life are in the heart but fear bitterness, anger, pride and all the other self -induced sins crowd out the Holy Spirit so often.  These negative feelings are so loud at times I cannot hear His small still voice.  

One of the things I am every learning in my years of walking God's road is how to hear His voice.  Dwelling on God's love for the whole world is one way, but when I draw a circle and only me and Him are in that circle, there is no room for anything else. It's a circle of love not because of me but because of Him.  I bring my heart and God brings His love and sometimes it overflows the circle.  True revival is never about us, but about Him, without me trying to control Him.  

Some are heading to Asbury to check out what is going on there. Jesus always drew a group around Him yet not everyone in the group was focus on Him.  He took a group of men from all walks of life and beliefs and drew a circle around Him and them individually and said, come walk with me.  He is still doing that today, at Asbury, in churches, in remote places all over the world, in people heart and in those sitting alone at home. It matters not the size of the crowd; it matters greatly that Jesus is the center of it.  

That love God has for us can move a hurting or prideful heart to repent, get things right between other, gives us motivations to keep going on with Him even though we are in a great trial.  It can cause us to say to Him, beg Him to fill us with His Spirit.  

Drawing a small circle and putting myself and God inside and focusing on His love for me, not my love for Him is a good start.  I can only bring my frail human love into the circle; He brings a supernatural pure love braced up with Him being our creator.  Prayer in that circle is so sweet and real.  When I try to bring my fleshly selfish issue into that circle I cannot pray, and nothing happens to my hurt.  When I become overwhelmed with His love for me, He changes my heart, and my issue are nothing.    Do I speak in tongues, I never have, cried tear of repentance by the buckets though.  When that circle holds only Him and I, all else fades away.  When revival happens in that circle, I want to tell others about His love, gratefulness flows from my heart as a result of me drowning in His love for me. 

Do I think what is happening at Asbury is real, yes and no.  There is always a Judas in the mix of seeking self in any crowd. Do I think all will understand it, no. There are always doubters in any crowd because everyone has their own opinion of what a revival is.  Pride will rear its ugly head while others get their hearts right with a Holy God.   One has to be humbled to receive from God a brand-new touch.  He wants revival, the devil does not want it.  God wants us to be revive so the lost will be drawn to us. I pray there is many lost at this revival, and they come to believing in the God of creation.  

The end of this world as we know it is fastly getting closer and closer to the end times and the only way the lost will be won is if we the saved will humble ourselves before the Lord in a circle that only holds two.  Then we will start reaching out to others, the lost for salvation, andthe saved who might need a brand-new touch. 

Love of my own....

 Everyone dreams about falling in love

Visions of rainbows and sunshine above 

But when my rainbows have faded and sunshine is gone

I was still searching for a love of my own. 

The words are from a song titled, "Love Of My Own."

With the love month starting today some are thinking about what to get for their love, whoever that might be. After being married 59 years when my husband ask me what I want and I usually tell him nothing. I am one of those hard to buy for women. I don't want flowers because they just die slowly. I don't want candy because I am over weight.  I have no needs to be met and through the years I have found those things you can hold in my hands do not make me feel loved. Give me a man who loves God and depends on Him to love me and I am a content women of God. 

 

 

Rest of song. 

Then one day a stranger came, and He called out my name.

And ever since His gentle touch, I have not been the same

He replaced all the dreams and chasing rainbows.

With His joy on my heart and a love or my own

And since I met Jesus, I know what love really is

And since I met Jesus there been no feeling like this

With His joy in my heart and a love of my own. 

I am in constant learning how to live this earthly life while walking with a love of my own.  This love that has captured me and won my heart makes it possible to love others better, to show grace when needed.  It's not a frail love that resides in my heart, it never quits, never disappoint me.  That love keeps me in love with my valentine, my husband and loving myself and others. 

This love is for everyone, and it cost us nothing.  It's better than chocolate for it never melts or spoils.  It never dies like flowers.  It can help an earthy love be at peace.  

Romans 8:38–39
"For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord." (NIV)

Trust...how sweet it is.

 

Thoughts on trusting. 

Every Christian knows this verse, yet it takes years of trusting until it become second nature or possible our first nature, which means Christ is ruling our heart.  

As believers we all talk a good trust talk but, it's one thing to intellectually know we are supposed to trust God in hard times...but what does that look like?

Don't know who wrote this but it resonated with me.  Trust is the cornerstone of every relationship, communication, and all work happening in the world. You cannot make things work out efficiently for a long time if you don't trust in people and the processes.  (Can I get an amen?)

I have realized lately that my trust has gotten sweeter, and I think it's because since 35 I have practiced trusting God on a daily basis. Many times, I trusted in tears, shaking with fear, slipping and sliding through the trials that breaks my heart.  Only to come back to the one who is worthy to trust.   

Trusting is an action word of the soul.  It's a verb not a noun that requires for us to put it into action before we feel that trust.  And that is why it has grown sweeter the longer I live.  There is such a calmness that comes over one when we are walking in trust.  Our world may be in turmoil, loss may be our burden, answers may evade our heart, but we can still put into action our trust because of who is the foundation of our trust.  

As much as humans can love there might come a time that love is not enough because trust has been broken.  It's hard to stay in a relationship when trust is broken.  We all want those we trust to stand strong even though we often don't.  

I have to put trust and expectations together because that is how trust gets broken.  Almost all my expectation for others and myself shatter in light of what the Bible teaches about we humans and our frailty.  I am glad God put verses in the Bible about taking heed to not judge others for their sins as if ours are not as bad.  Thankful He made room for I John 1:9.

So, how did trust become so sweet in light of being hurt deeply and disappointed through my 76 years.  I can boldly tell you it's because I have and still letting go of expectations for others and myself and putting fully my trust in God   I fully belong to someone who loves me unconditionally and with that knowledge I can forgive when I need to and as many times as I need to.   I can place all hurts and disappointment in His lap.  Every time someone fails me, or I fail myself or another I take that misplaced trust and put it on Jesus.  So my trust in Him has grown through the years and that is where the sweetness comes from.  He is able to take my trust in Him and give me peace in this world.  

The more I trust Him, the more I love Him
Nothing good for me He'll deny
The longer I know Him, the better I can show Him
I couldn't stop now if I tried

It gets sweeter as the days go by
It gets sweeter as the moments fly
His love is richer, deeper, fuller, sweeter
Sweeter, sweeter, sweeter as the days go by

Oh, the moment He saved my His good grace He gave me
He place His love down deep in my heart
There's great joy in knowing with Him I am going
And never more from Him to depart

It gets sweeter as the days go by
It gets sweeter as the moments fly
His love is richer, deeper, fuller, sweeter
Sweeter, sweeter, sweeter as the days go by

EASY

 

I finished 2022 with a sigh.., glad that year is over only to have the, wait a minute thoughts come speeding into my mind. For me, 2022 was a year full of medical issue. I am praying 2023 will pass without any hospital stays. But, I turn 76 this week so I know this aging body will continue to deteriorate. Gravity takes it toll and the aging process leaves one with a body that does not work well and someday will give it up.

I can tell you from experience that living in the states is easy compared to other places we have lived, actually, too darn easy. Years ago the Lord directed us to overseas mission, Bolivia being the first place we went too. Right away I realize there were no packages of chocolate chips to purchase, but I had friends who like me thought, how hard life is going to get without chocolate chips. It wasn't long I discovered a roll of chocolate called Batons is what people use there. Here is the kicker you must chop them up into chip size to make cookies. It was not as easy to bake anything without those lovely chips. But, one will step up and do the not so easy thing to end that desire for sweets.

Package lunch meat, came about killing the animal, putting the meat through a grinder, presses to get lunch meat. Cheese come from a cow that someone had to milk. It took work to pasteurize the milk to kill the bacteria and then you had to cool it down, skim off the cream to make all sort of things we can just run into a store and buy. I am thankful for the dollar stores near us, they have it all, just pick it up, carry to checkout, take home and use

Ok, thats enough of the hardships of living in an undeveloped country. In case you wondering, we did love it because our purpose for being there had nothing to do with it being easy. We knew it would be hard but doing without the frills of easy living did not cause us to forgo what we knew God wanted us to do with our life. Chocolate chips and packaged lunch meat was not the purpose of our soul. What it did for our family was help us get our priorities in order, narrowed our focus down to our purpose.

Don't get me wrong I love easy and one would think it would make living for the Lord easier. Honestly it is harder to live for the Lord in abundant America. When you do not have internet, and electricity it causes everyday things to be harder. Going to church is harder here, I mean I can stay home in my pj and listen to a message about God. But, that is not what God said to do. He says to assemble TOGETHER, each of us growing together.

I would watch the ladies who lived around us and there only a few who had weight problems. In fact they assumed we were rich because we had some fat on us. They loved to feel the underneath of my arms, you know the part that wobbles.

From Thanksgiving to after the start of 2023 I gained 4 pounds from using easy ways of making things, especially sweets or just buying already made food. It was an easy 4 pounds to put on.

So after seeking easy ways to lose weight I think I will take the hard way of doing that. Less portions, less easy already baked things, more of the old fashion walking when I am able. I love ease but I love more that Jesus did not look around for the easy way to purchase our souls from going to hell. He stepped up to the plate and said, I will go, God who created us suffered and died for us so we could experience salvation. 

What is God teaching you from your abundant living? Is He the one you trust to give you direction for the life you have. Most of the time His direction can be a hard road, not an easy one. Oh, but the sights He shows us on that road, the things we learn that help us to be more like Him. Sacrifice is my new chocolate chip and I would give them up for Him because He gave up all for me. I have started my new year with a thankful heart that turns my eyes to Him.

Late

 

There sits part of my Christmas card, addressed, nice words written inside the card, enveloped and ready for stamps.  There is no reason I did not get them done and sent other then I put everything else before the task.  After years and years of doing this because I wanted everyone to think I was a super woman at anything needing done.  

The last week and half has been a reminder that some deem Christmas card sending still important.  Two days before Christmas and we have gotten six cards and I have sent out none.  I especially did the personal one first, you know close family, close friends and thought how loving I was being to these people thinking of them first.  Then came the churches that has supported us all these years.  They usually post it on top of the last update on a special board especially for missionaries.  

What is happening in my mind that I would let this good thing slip and come to this place.  I think my priorities are changing as I age. Lord knows I had enough time to do this.  Yet there they sit, no stamp, a reminder of my failure. 

There sits part of my Christmas card, addressed, nice words written inside the card, enveloped and ready for stamps.  There is no reason I did not get them done and sent other then I put everything else before the task.  After years and years of doing this because I wanted everyone to think I was a super woman at anything needing done.  

The last week and half has been a reminder that some deem Christmas card sending still important.  Two days before Christmas and we have gotten six cards and I have sent out none.  I especially did the personal one first, you know close family, close friends and thought how loving I was being to these people thinking of them first.  Then came the churches that has supported us all these years.  They usually post it on top of the last update on a special board especially for missionaries.  

I know I am not alone in this for we have only received six cards and half of them were just a family picture, which I love, I keep those but the card I throw away.   

This is about all I can say on this subject, but I want to leave you with a good thought.  Jesus not only came to die for our sin but from the guilt of whatever we feel guilty about.  Thankful for His unconditional love and mercy this Christmas.

                                                           MERRY CHRISTMAS 

Trip!

 

Laughter is so good for us.  

Two and half weeks ago we took off on a trip to the south.  Not because we were seeking some beach to thaw us out from the cold and snow but a trip to encouraged others and get some encouragement.

  First to a family member 30th birthday party outside of Kansas City.  Then next day we went to Illinois for Thanksgiving with more family. 

On a still full stomach we left the day after Thanksgiving headed back south to St. Louis to pick up a car belonging to a longtime friend who needed someone to drive it to Phoenix, Az. We left our car there and drove the most southern route hoping we would miss any bad weather.   

This is where it got even better for us.  This route took us too close to our sons and family who live north of Dallas to not stop in.  Seeing the surprised faces of our Grandchildren who did not know we were coming and feel their arms hugging us was the highlight of the whole trip.    

Traveling always means saying goodbye and after two days and night we went on our way heading to Phoenix through some awesome remotes' sights. There was some snow on the mountains but none on the roads.   El Paso was an over whelming huge city and at times we could see the border wall.  It saddens our hearts to think of the chaos going on there. 

After two days and one night on the road we made it to Phoenix to my brother place where we stayed for a few days resting up from the drive.  Another goodbye and off we flew back to St. Louis and picked up our car and started our drive to Blackduck Mn.  That cold and snow was still there but praise the Lord the roads were cleared off.  

Ace and I have traveled all over the world in our ministry which has meant lots of flying and driving.   My favorite way to travel is by car though because I read a lot and Ace and I reflect on each visit.  Kind of a time for a heart check to see if we actually encouraging others or were we getting all the encouragement.  

Everyone needs some encouragement, especially this time of the year.  To think daily on what God did for us through His Son is encouragement.